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Actually wanted to list down each and every coming figures which are worth your time. But due to time constraints, I decided to only list down those that I have pre-ordered. Erm, all of them pre-ordered at Kinokuniya :P Thanks Terry~!!! ^____^
Once again...I am reminded about how important you are in my life. Sometimes, I feel as though you understand me better than myself. You are always there for me when I needed you, and always there to guide me back to the right path. Your words influence me greatly. Somehow, someway...you motivate me to achieve my goals in life.
I admit, I have learnt more than anyone else from you. All those bitter sweet experiences, they had made me grown tremendously in these short two years. And I thank you for that. I am truly grateful for you being by my side all these while, supporting me to become what I am now. And I sincerely hope I could be strong enough to support your burden when you needed me.
You are someone irreplaceable to me, someone who I will treasure dearly for the rest of my life. You will always have an special place in my heart.
I will always love and cherish you, my true friend. ^_____^
Muakzzzz~!!! XD XD XD
Really sorry de. Honto ni. T____T Sorry for giving you a really hard time, hope you didn't tercekik >___< I feel really bad. T_T Maybe it's due to the fact that this is the first time I went out alone with someone who I don't really know...let alone date. I really dunno what to say or act...T____T. Totally lost.... Actually I did have a great time, but then, dunno why I just can't say it out T________T and hope I didn't break your wallet with all those flowers and gifts....and also your heart :P But the flowers and teddy bear are really REALLY nice, thanks a lot ^^ I like them very much.
KUNGFU HUSTLE SIMPLY ROCKKKSS!!!! It'll just blow you off your seats!!!!! Man, I really can't think of anyone who wouldn't enjoy this movie.
Well, it's exactly as how Merlin puts it: "SOHAIness". EXACTLY. Sohaiiizz until you beh tahan. Stephen is back with all his dumbass moves, but then, it's so dumb until it ROCKS!!!! XD XD XD YENG MAN!!!! *thumbs up* I laughed until I almost lost my voice ;P
My favourite scene is where the two of them main chase chase... Wah I never seen anyone run like that...except in cartoons of course XD XD XD And WTF?!??! Blade as a rear view mirror? Gotta try that out soon someday XD XD XD Jump on eagle while making a kungfu stance? Stephen you read too much comic liao la~ XD XD XD Clouds form into the shape of the buddha?!!! I don't know where that guy get all his wacky ideas, but the whole show really makes me feel like I'm in-game >____< and what's with the Mr. Smith thingy from The Matrix? O.o You copycat! :P
Erm, not forgetting today's occasion, which is to celebrate Match's belated birthday -.-|||| Well, hope you had fun. Although I didn't really sense it...=.=|| No thanks to sei Merlin... Pok-kai somemore....-"- But at least Matchy-san you also laugh damn hard during the movie ma....^_~ If one day you really DO explode and beat Merlin up...I will come visit both of you at da hospital XD XD XD Chichi very good hearted one~ Beli nice nice road side porridge for you two makan~ (I'll make sure I'll find one REALLY dirty and disgustingly unedible porridge shop :P)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MATCH~~!!! XD XD XD
(hope next year you could get more people than three of us again to come WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA XD XD XD)
A new cycle of seasons had begun...the screeching sound of the wheel of destiny...reminding me it is time to move on...again...
A few targets to be met:-
1. Fix my japanese
2. Lose weight -.-|||
3. Buck up my drumming skills
4. Clear up my complexion
5. Part-time modelling
6. Find a BF!!!!
Hope Mista Santa will fulfil all my wishes above....especially number 6!!! One BF giftwrapped with ribbons and ties coming up!!! Support Pos Malaysia!!! Use PosLaju!! Hari ini hantar mesti sampai esok!!! ;P
Had some serious talk with someone I've had feelings for for a very VERY long time. Can't say I didn't notice it, but perhaps I am still clinging onto something all this while. DAMN. Cancel out the 'perhaps'. I ADMIT I am. I knew it wouldn't work out since day 1, but I somehow...some way...am still hoping.
My biggest weakness is I always try to hide my feelings, and sometimes even to myself. Why? I totally don't know. I've convinced myself that I've let go of him...but actually, I haven't. All this while, I've been lying to my own consience. I like him. Very much. I do. I admit it now. But it's over. O-V-E-R.
Everytime I make excuses to myself, the weaker is my strength to do the right thing; that is to completely let go of this feelings. In these few months, how many excuses have I made? Countless. I am a real stubborn person, it runs in my family. And this is really ruining a real big part of my life.
...wait. That's also an excuse. Looks like I'm doing it all the time. Seriously, I don't even know how to be true to myself. I don't know how to let go... because I've always regarded letting go as a sign of weakness...an indication that I have lost. I DID. I have lost the battle. And now I should put it all behind me, ONCE AND FOR ALL.
This entry will serve as a reminder to myself. A reminder to this phase of my life. This time, it all ends. Return everything BACK TO NOTHING. N-O-T-H-I-N-G. A complete blank. Void. Null. Nada. Zero.
So...I ADMIT...
...every little things I do, every action I take...I still think of you. All those sleeve pulling arm dragging playful punching whatsoever...they are acts that I hope would change your mind. I admit it now. I need to. After all these years. And the numerous names I've called you...from Kanzaki to niichan to bro to Exile to CY and back to Kanzaki...
But all these gotta end. As you will say...season changes...life changes...open up to new things, new people. Yes, a complete cycle of seasons has passed. Spring, Summer, Autumn, and the dreaded Winter.... And a whole new year is waiting for me. A new spring, a new summer, a new autumn, a new winter...a completely new different cycles of seasons...
Goodbye. A new cycle of season has begun...
Created a new flickr account...from now on any new photos will go here. ^__^ Those in there are the lastest....Check it out below!!
What do you buy for a guy on his birthday?
Come on, dun tell me this question had never crossed your mind...let alone terrorize your poor brain....as u crack it, overwork it and tear it down for an answer. Cause my head goes B-L-A-N-K. I mean, what CAN you buy for a guy?!! A guy who is your close friend, a guy who is not inclined to any special hobbies (ex. figures ;P), a guy who practically already has everything u know he wants. So....WTF ELSE CAN YOU BUY FOR HIM?!??!!
What, step into a hypermart and just pick up the first item you see? Walk into a gift shop and buy all those cute cute ornaments...? But damn that only works for gals. Treat him to a dinner or movie?!! but you can't keep those... ARGGGHH!!!! I CAN'T THINK NO MORE!!! This mental torture is just too much...TAI LOU FONG GOR NGOR PLEASE!!!!!
I mean, WHY issit SO difficult to buy a present for a guy??!! For gals, practically ANYTHING will do. Just as long as they look nice, preferably cute, or maybe something functional like a bag or a purse....
Guys....WHAT CAN YOU BUY?!! Dun tell me buy a shirt or some apparel?! Then you wouldn't know if you've bought the fitting size... perfume?! actually can....but this friend of mine has already gotten himself one...T___T What else??!! I can't think...mental block....T____T And you always have to be caution with your gift as he might just get the wrong idea...
I say...why don't we just set a new trend? When it comes to birthday presents for guys, just pack a red packet with a substantial amount of money. Ahem. Now you may argue this method doesn't have that kind of personal touch...but money makes the world goes round... with money comes flexibility; he can buy anything he likes. Simple, sweet and functional right?
Speaking of birthdays, why do guys and gals have different attitudes towards it? Gals like their birthday to be celebrated. Gals like to be in the limelight on this special day. Gals would like everyone to know their birthday is coming so that everyone could get into the spirit of it. Guys? Now now..they are just the complete opposite. "Grown up liao hor...still wan hold party meh?" "No need la. Birthday nothing special oso...I diam diam celebrate sendiri can liao..." "Huh?!! Is today my birthday?!! I didn't know..."
Oh come on. Isn't your birth to this wonderful world a worthy cause to be celebrated? Or else if you're the conservative type...just spend some time with all your friends and have some fun...
Yea...at last today arrives...and IT WAS A BLAST!!! Of coz, not to mention I forgo'ed CosMas & the air-stewardess interview for today...@@ But I had no regrets ^__^ Luckily, everything went smoothly and I had to act abit to play the role (erm...my electone performance 5 examiner wrote tat I had good showmanship...@@)... It was real fun. ^__^ Thanks Karen for bringing me the part...and also all the new friends I've made. You guys and gals are GREAT!!! Not to mention friendly too ^_~ Hope sum of u will be reading tis ^___^
Erm actually...I did run off beat a little but...eh...a little covering up will do....;P
Oh and btw, thanks for even having the idea of me in your band...coz i really dunno anything one....@@ and real sorry for your transport problem...really hope u caught the train in time @@ and thanks for sending me down :P that was real sweet of u ^_^ and hey you're real cute and funny...but luckily I didn't fall on your sticks @@
Mind you....the credits above are directed to four different persons...but I'm not naming them :P
Haih~ after sum searching thru the net... finally found sum language centres offering japanese classes around KL and SJ. But all oso so far~ T__T Sigh. I wished I had persevered in the lessons i took last time...so near and class of four only...but then...SPM near..had to stop....T____T
So as i was sayin, I think I will take my lessons from ICLS SJ...coz it's the only place which is quite safe and the price and length of the course are acceptable too. ^^ But still considering Teikyo Institute as an option...but Japan club in Seputeh...damn sesak jalan la~ T___T although SJ oso jam...but not as bad pa....will be checking out these centres around next week ^__^
So now comes to the next problem. Transport? I dun hav car yet wor...rely on my mom to fetch again meh? @@ so near all those colleges....JAM JAM JAM!!!!! ARGGGHHHH!!!! How how how??!!! Parking oso leh? Siao!!!! ......eh! yea wor...tat time after office hour liao~ will parking be easier? @@ dunno....not familiar with da place....
Another thing...I HATE PPL WHO FFK!!! FFK not due to valid reasons...ffk bcoz of own laziness etc etc etc....PIF!!! I hope u won't ffk me tis time...u know who u are..... 
I can feel the wind blowing on my face....the sweet scent of spring...in the midst of the white snow.The silence....the pure innocence of it all....drowned in the eternality of the soft pulsating hymm of faraway spring...
Droplets of red quivered and trembled on my fingers, before reluctantly falling down into the white snow, into its cold embrace....savouring all the pureness of what it could never become....staining the flawless white....contaminating it...taint...pollute...spoil...adulterate...tarnish...CORRUPT....
Red...the colour that runs through my veins... so deceiving and yet....so....comforting. The mesmerising smell of fresh blood....a world stained with red. A world of chaos and endless sorrow....entangled in webs of deceit...pain...bitter memories...set adrift on the foreign sea...reaching out...to grasp for the familiarity, for something I could identify with....
RED. Blood red. The unseen horizon, of blood red....
I've always thought of you as a friend...and have always wanted to keep it that way. But sometimes, just sometimes, I can feel myself attracted to you, my mind let astray...into thoughts of you. I've always dismissed these endearing thoughts, but now...these feelings have gotten stronger and stronger. Is it because you were always there for me? Or is it because you were always willing to hear me out? Or is it because you always had a way to make me laugh?
Yes, I admit I've always enjoyed your presense. And yes, I also admit I've always cared for you. But lately, I started to have to urges to hug you, and even to kiss you, to give you warmth from the coldness in your heart. I yearn to hear your voice... and wait desperately for your news...waiting for my static handphone to vibrate, to receive your sms that never came.
A part of me tells me these feelings will pass, that these emotions are just temporary. I still want to treat you just as a friend, a friend who understands me and cares for me. But the other part of me is constantly thinking of you, wanting to meet you as much as I could. Thinking that we could move a step further than just friends...
I wish...that these feelings would disappear....
I wish...that we could remain just friends forever....
I wish...you would always be there for me....
I wish...I could hug you and lean on your shoulders when I'm out cold....
I wish........
Am I in denial?
